I can't say I ain't affected.

But I'm sick of defending myself to myself.

I can be really cruel and mean too, I just don't wish to, coz I'm not that kind of person. Those who are close to me know it, that's good enough for me... I rem eLsie once asked me, someone will be hurt, it's either me or her, I rather it be who?

she dunno me at all, there are so much things she dun even know. All that she's going thru' now, haven't I been thru' it before not long ago? I know there are many diff ways of love, perhaps her way is to do so much for him, but for me, it's forgiving. He really did tried to minimize the hurt to her.. It could have been much worse.. none of us are feeling good abt it, but do we have much choices? except to move on?

life ain't fair la..

how I wish I can just stay home and watch Bleach.