some people just have it all.

and i will never be that kind of person.

everyone has turning points in their life, but the one in my mind right now, is 10yrs ago. Before then i had a happy normal childhood. Sadly everything changed after then. I know it's no good to wish.. but if things didn't changed then, i would be a very different person now, a much happier one with less sadness and painful memories.

One have to create their own happiness, and it's nobody's fault but mine. Friends. I've failed so badly in that part of my life. Although i'm still lucky to have a few true frenz.. i've also let a few down for not being a fren enough. I really sux at maintaining frenship.. and i hate myself.