I must say i haven't been looking back into my past for a very long while.. but after seeing the old photos at Elsie's blog, i just felt like taking a look at those old photos of mine again..

and realized I looked horrible then.
haha.. think it was the hairstyle.

A photo was a moment frozen.. the remainders of any feelings attached slowly faded with time. I couldn't really recognise the old me anymore, but it wasn't that bad, admist the many rainy days there were some sunny days? Yes, i did have happy times. Yet the memories are vague, like a page out of a history bk that i know of but unrelated to me? People i was so close with became strangers, i always can't apprehend why. Are they the so-called footprints in my life? Part and parcel of life? That's the way it is?

I'm babbling nonsense.. feel inadequate, that my english so-so and my vocabulary is limited thus unable to express myself good enough. When i read what others wrote, all that i want to say, got choked back. If it ain't gonna come out nicely, might as well just keep it inside. Did i care less then, or do i care more now?

I don't really recognise myself now even.. i'm just a lost soul.

But i know i'm still as stubborn as ever. That hasn't change.

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if i end this entry like this, some may think i'm in a moody mood again. But no, i don't feel anything. At least with regards to the past i don't have anything else to say already.

Each phase of my life gets better, therefore so far currently life is good. Cannot complain too much, will get scolded =p But i will look forward.. and let me have more crazy happy times at this age of 21! =D